So maybe I did give a fuck. This kills. I just want to go back to the days when nothing was more perfect than the way our hands fit together. When snowflakes would stick to her eyelashes as she danced around. I just want to go back to when we loved each other more than we hated.
So just go ahead and do whatever you want because maybe I don't give a fuck. Chop all your fucking hair off and throw it away. Stop dance classes. Wear more makeup. Just change everything that I loved about you, because I don't anymore. I regret every fucking thing we did. I wish I could fucking go back in time and never have sex with you because you're just a cunt and you don't deserve me. I wish I never would have stood up for you that day, I wish I never would have helped you make friends, and I especially wish I never would have took your hand or met your lips with mine. I fucking hate you Skye and I swear to god I'll make sure everyone else does too. You were a shitty girlfriend, but I was a shittier boyfriend because guess what: I was in love with someone else the whole time.
I didn't mean any of that. I just want you back in my arms. That's where you belong. Don't change. I don't regret anything. I've never loved anyone but you. I've never fucking loved anyone but you, Skye. I fucking love you, but you were killing me. How can the only thing thats killing me make me feel so alive? I think I'm just an addict. So maybe you need to go. But come back.
I'm so confused. All I know is that I want you. I'm going to get us back. This wasn't a breakup, you mark my words.
I just fucking love you. And love IS enough sweetie...

Let the shit begin...

All hell is about to break loose.
But I don't give a fuck- I I don't give a fuck,

Prom was great :)
We haven't had a night like that in a long time. And I wish it was always like that. Because when you are that's when I love you the most. You're hair looked great and you were seriously the most beautiful girl in the room. I love that everyone tried too hard with their hair all done up and yours was just down in it's waves. You know your hair is my favorite thing. Because it's so long and the waves are what every girl wants. It's pretty much perfect. And I can't even tell you about what it feels like when I have my nose buried in it.
I don't want to end this. But I think I have to.

Today I talked to someone that I haven't talked to in the longest time.
And it took me right back. And i just felt some peace. Because I swear to god that was exactly what I needed right now.
So thanks love, I really missed you too.

How come we don't say I love you enough?

I've never been in the hospital before. Not that I remember. I mean I know I've gotten broken bones and stitches and stuff, but it never seems as dramatic as everyone else's story. So it doesn't really count. Even when I have gone in, I've always known that I'll be safe. That was never a question. If it was, I don't know what I would even do. Or who I would think about. Or what I guess. This last week I've just been thinking about that a lot as one by one my friends get admitted to the hospital. What if I'm next? And I'm not ready? What if I haven't done all my homework or said I love you to everyone? Then what happens, I just regret it the whole time?
I'm afraid of not being here anymore. I'm afraid of dying.

I JUST WANT TO GRADUATE! NOW!
God I fucking hate school

I had an epiphany today and I'm glad I did. it's gonna be a good week.
Need to get a tux for prom aystat.
What does the color Skye blue even mean? She's going to look gorgeous that night.
Baby, please just wear your hair wavy. And don't cut it. I like how long its getting. I like everything about you. We'll have an amazing night, I swear to god we will.
Sorry I suck at blogging now, but life is boring.
Homework. Skye. Practice. Sleep. School. Homework. Skye. Practice. Sleep. School...

Today was a much better day :) Skye, Mike, and Adri tag teamed me and I couldn't stop smiling the whole day. It was nice. I'm done stressin about things that don't mean shit. It's all about the good now. And time to start planning for prom :) it has to be hella good for my girl this year! I need suggestions though so text me :) Yeah that's all. I'm aware I'm shit at blogging but people keep stealing my thunder. Deal with it, whore.

Life is truly shit right now. I'm not getting along with anyone. Not even the people I love most because I'm taking all my anger out on them. I don't even know what's going on right now with myself but I need someone. I need to find myself again.
Help me.

I'm in a band, bitches

yeah I'm pretty sure that says it all!
And YES being in a band ADDS to my attractiveness because being in a band is COOL and ATTRACTIVE!
My girlfriend is a fucking retard for thinking otherwise ;) I love you, babe:)

It's almost time for prom :) I just barley asked Skye and I'm pretty stoked about it. If mike doesn't ask a girl soon i'm going to fucking blow a gasket.