Hoping that my voice could get it right

I can't stop thinking. Normally I would scream to get out of my head. But I care too much to do that. I need to somehow become myself again. But I only am when I talk to you. I don't feel needed by anyone. I feel like I've done so much wrong and that all I've done is disappoint people. I feel like people only remember the stupid things that I did and they hate me. I don't feel very loved. But then I talk to you and you make me feel differently about myself. You give me hope. And it makes me wish that we went to school together so that I could always have that strength with me. I just know we would be the best friends that everyone is jealous of. You're my weak spot I think. You give me starry eyes and help me to remember my dreams. I feel like a better person and I feel like I'm just like glowing or something. You're such a strong person and I don't know if I am anymore. I've lost alot of myself this year. I know I'm not the same. I let too many little things tear me apart inside, but I never show that they are. I need to learn more from you because I admire so many of your qualities. Help to build me and put me back together. I really think I need it. I just think that your personality rubs off on me and makes me better and I need that more often. You're just one of those people that I can only relate to a star in the sky. I make wishes on you all the time