But either way it happened. And I feel so fucking weird about it because I didn't want to do anything like this again. We aren't together. I don't WANT to be together and I don't really even like her. I don't know what my fucking problem is. We were just grinding. But then she was kissing me and I was drunk so I didn't stop. And then she was on top of me and we were naked. I don't remember anything in between those two things. She took advantage of ME. I'm the victim! She was the one that was motherfucking sober. I can not be held accountable for my actions when I'm drunk.
But I know I still have to be. This pisses me off because I didn't want to be that guy anymore. I was changing and I was doing good. I was starting to get respect from girls other than the ones that just wanted some ass. But now I failed. I know she's going to tell everyone if she hasn't already. And then I'm back to square one all over again. I don't want Skye to know. I don't want her to lose her respect for me.
I'm going to stop drinking.
No comments:
Post a Comment